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HELLO TO THE WORLD OF BLOGGING

 

Please understand that everything in this blog will include only the honest truth about the journey I shall undertake to find my birth parents. I will share some feelings and thoughts with you that may be confronting, but if I am going to start this blog I want it to be genuine. I would never change the path I have been on and  believe that I have been given every opportunity in life (one that my birth parents could not give me).

I am going to start right at the beginning. At three months old I began a journey with my family (at the time strangers). While I never really knew what was happening it was set that my life was going to be both challenging and rewarding. I was adopted into a loving family with two older brothers (who were also adopted) and later on a sister (who was fostered).

I remember this one night in particular ( I was probably 9 years old) I wanted answers. I believe at this time in primary school we were looking at where we came from and our cultures/background. During this period of time I never really had any answers to these questions besides providing answers based on my (adoptive) parents history. This began to stir thoughts in my head. I began to question why I was here, not on earth but here with a family who could never really understand what life was like for a little Asian girl with no link to her past. I guess you could say I felt a sense of disconnection with my family and a bit lost. I spoke to my (adoptive) mum and I remember seeing her cry as she could not give me the answers I wanted nor could she truly understand what I was going through. Mum could only hear the disheartened pain in my voice and see the sadness in my body language.

Over the last 5 years I have probably written an application more than 10 times in order to search for my birth parents but I never get to the point of sending off my application. I am not sure why this occurs but I am hoping that this time will be different.

I have titled my blog ‘Two Pages Pending’ the reason behind the title is that I have two pages of information in relation to my birth parents and while there are only two pages I am hoping that along this journey I am going to turn those two pages into something much larger.

The next step of this process is to fill out a number of application forms and forward them to NSW Family and Community Services. Eastern Social Welfare Society require that I go through an agency in order to access more information.

I am nervous, scared and excited to embark on this new chapter. I am most definitely privileged to share my story with you. I hope you enjoy reading my blog and if you have any questions or would like to contact me please leave a comment below.



5 Comments:
  • Michelle
    23/04/2015 at 10:39 pm

    I wish you all the best for your journey Sara. Sending you lots of love xx

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  • Suzi Hilton
    23/04/2015 at 10:42 pm

    Tears in my eyes as I read this. Wishing you all the very best for your journey.

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  • Robyn Campbell .....Aunt
    30/04/2016 at 2:05 pm

    Dear Sara, I feel sure your longing to find your biological family will be fulfilled. I understand the pain and curiosity you have endured will not fall on deaf ears or blind eyes. My thoughts are, no woman can give birth to a child and not think about that child every day. Like you she would have so many questions. Where is that child, what does she look like,is she happy and healthy? Yes, you have been blessed with your adoptive parents and siblings who give you unconditional love,support, good education and a comfortable life. But in saying this I totally understand your wishes. I wish to let you know I am thinking and praying for you. Possitive thinking and prayer bring great rewards. I love you Sara, wishing you the best.
    Love Aunt xxxx

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